23.
damn, im old.
jan 16
i turned 23 at exactly 5.23am.
i worked my ass out, then came 1pm.
weee finally, restday.
slept. woke up.
fever.
slept again.
i even missed the pyrotechnic contest in sm. bummer.
i went to fuente, checked the scene. walked a few miles.
ate at kfc.
slept again.
next day.
sinulog.
rain.
so i thought maybe id just make up for the wasted time yesterday.
i was hoping i would.
rain.
matt evans.
melissa ricks.
cesar montano.
hmmmm. rain and more rain.
my dad called from Africa.
asked for my permission to use my lappy.
i went out with friends to yala. i had my fireworks fix at long last.
awestruck.
wanted to know if the pyrotechnic contest was any good than what was in yala.
we went to outpost.
was a bit excited to see if my workmate was playing.
he was not there.
guess he left.
then it was clear to me that there was never really a point in waiting.
was pissed.
was really pissed.
this was suppose to be my post birthday celebration with friends.
all i had were my cousin and a really good friend.
has some laughs and some good chitchat.
was really sucked was that, this was never really my plan. all i to have funwas a good talk over coffee though i never really drink. i can just sit thereand smell the aroma from the cup across me or nearby the table where we shouldbe sitting til the morning comes.
i ordered a pitcher of kamikazee and chug on them like there was no tomorrow.
brainfreeze.
my heart felt like frozen for a while.
gave me a sense of euphoria.
what hurts though, was that i felt like i made a fool out of myself.
felt like i never really was supposed to be there.
i could have stayed at home and ate the pistachio icecream, but i chose to goout to have fun with friends.
wait. what friends?
where are they?
stuck somewhere far.
i felt sad for myself in a way.
looking pathetic there.
waiting.
waiting.
ive been living and walking the face of the earth for 23 freaking years now.
and at times, i wish i knew how to lie.
lying these days has become a necessity.
yes. i am pissed.
last year, i spent my birthday with my bestfriend and a good friend back inbutuan. it was also raining.
oh yes.
it was a total bummer.
that was my sarcasm.
truth hurts. that is why we lie.
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