Author Archives: Zhee Bardos

i woke up. palpitating. hypothermic. i had cancer.  i was in a hospital bed.a nurse came in to tell me the lovely news that ihave cancer. what a good what to start the day huh? i went over my fridge to get the wine i bought afew days.was i ever ready to drown everything.ohhh theContinueContinue reading “alae”

where are we now? i haven’t asked that question yet. logic dictates that i should move on. keeping in casual.what the f*** does that mean? nothing wrong seeing a movie. i guess. is that it?jogging?anything else?shopping?anything we can do?anythign at all?brunch. brunch is nice.  LOOOL!! some lines from Desperate Housewives. been addicted to it theseContinueContinue reading “bummer”

“Take care of my heart, I left it with you” – EdwardCullen , Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer i was always skeptic about the emotion we calllove, i don’t know why i do.. maybe because i was never an expert on itexperience-wise… i have had my fair share ( 2 “unofficialboyfriends”, 3 flings, 1 flavor ofContinueContinue reading “always”

Christmas. yuletide. flickering Christmas lights in the night.  ahh the sound of holiday cheer and the cool Christmas breeze envelopes my sole heart. i was deemed to spend my first Christmas here. i filed for 2 day leave – on the 23rd and the 24th. so i guess im working my ass out on ChristmasContinueContinue reading “epiphany”

it takes a long while to get me crying these days. i woke up crying. wow my subconscious self is weaker than myconscious self then.i kept my guard way too high.. way too long..i said i couldn’t cry anymore.i said never shall a tear be shed when i think ofhim.i eventually did. i cried. wasContinueContinue reading “soon”

i had fun the whole weekend (last weekend). preoccupied with afriend who recently got back to retrieve her things. we went to SM played inBibo. played the Bumper Cars and ate out. it was very exhausting indeed yetfun. my friend asked where he was. i gave her a lame excuse.it was fun withthem yet notContinueContinue reading “the missing piece”

a workmate asked me: why are you always on OT? (overtime) me: just bored at home. *smug grin* i was. i am. or is it my only sane alibi to keepmyself from succumbing to my weak self again? the self that i wanted to growout of? i could say that i am the lonely type.ContinueContinue reading “drenched”

on a lighter side of things: i was so disoriented last week. i woke up at 2am getting ready for work. hmmmm what to wear i asked myself. so i took the liberty to use my home-clothes towork added a jacket and voila! dress down. ahaha! i will not speak of dates tohide my shame!ContinueContinue reading “estupida”

so where do i start? i wish i could be courageous enough to tellyou all that i feel. i wish i was smarter, wiser and stronger. they always saythat things happen for a reason. i may not know what those reasons are as ofthe moment but i am still thankful.  so i cried. i triedContinueContinue reading “cardiomegaly”

i awoke feeling shitty again. what is it with Mondays and the blues? they don’tcall it Monday blues for nothing i guess. i was told not totalk about this again, this gets tiring one side of my head was telling me. buti will and for the last time. this would be my ultimatum.when can youContinueContinue reading “monday blues”