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“Take care of my heart, I left it with you” – EdwardCullen , Eclipse by Stephenie Meyer i was always skeptic about the emotion we calllove, i don’t know why i do.. maybe because i was never an expert on itexperience-wise… i have had my fair share ( 2 “unofficialboyfriends”, 3 flings, 1 flavor ofContinueContinue reading “always”

Christmas. yuletide. flickering Christmas lights in the night.  ahh the sound of holiday cheer and the cool Christmas breeze envelopes my sole heart. i was deemed to spend my first Christmas here. i filed for 2 day leave – on the 23rd and the 24th. so i guess im working my ass out on ChristmasContinueContinue reading “epiphany”

it takes a long while to get me crying these days. i woke up crying. wow my subconscious self is weaker than myconscious self then.i kept my guard way too high.. way too long..i said i couldn’t cry anymore.i said never shall a tear be shed when i think ofhim.i eventually did. i cried. wasContinueContinue reading “soon”

i had fun the whole weekend (last weekend). preoccupied with afriend who recently got back to retrieve her things. we went to SM played inBibo. played the Bumper Cars and ate out. it was very exhausting indeed yetfun. my friend asked where he was. i gave her a lame excuse.it was fun withthem yet notContinueContinue reading “the missing piece”

a workmate asked me: why are you always on OT? (overtime) me: just bored at home. *smug grin* i was. i am. or is it my only sane alibi to keepmyself from succumbing to my weak self again? the self that i wanted to growout of? i could say that i am the lonely type.ContinueContinue reading “drenched”

on a lighter side of things: i was so disoriented last week. i woke up at 2am getting ready for work. hmmmm what to wear i asked myself. so i took the liberty to use my home-clothes towork added a jacket and voila! dress down. ahaha! i will not speak of dates tohide my shame!ContinueContinue reading “estupida”

so where do i start? i wish i could be courageous enough to tellyou all that i feel. i wish i was smarter, wiser and stronger. they always saythat things happen for a reason. i may not know what those reasons are as ofthe moment but i am still thankful.  so i cried. i triedContinueContinue reading “cardiomegaly”

i awoke feeling shitty again. what is it with Mondays and the blues? they don’tcall it Monday blues for nothing i guess. i was told not totalk about this again, this gets tiring one side of my head was telling me. buti will and for the last time. this would be my ultimatum.when can youContinueContinue reading “monday blues”

someone told me that i was too weak too shallow. bordering toomuch on things. that crying was never a solution.  if that person could see me now, well i am notcrying anymore. you want me to suck it all up? then i am. every waking day. imust say that i was never the type toContinueContinue reading “sulking over.”

I woke up yesterday feeling gloomy. Clouds were gloomy as welland the wind was cold as ice. I went out to walk and bang, the realization cameover me like an anvil from the heavens! It has been 5 frickin years! 5 long years since igot someone to call my boyfriend. As I was walking about,ContinueContinue reading “sometimes i can't make it alone :(“