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officially the start of the BER months. i am trying out this list of things to do beforethe year ends. to some, yes i can be impulsive but i can be that and a plannertoo – whichever comes first! nyahah! some of the things i need to do before the yearends: 1. get retainers 😀ContinueContinue reading “counting down~~”

i had this feeling that something is really not right. i tried to shrug it all of thinking that maybe, id get by. i was okey- pretending to be. so i went to sleep. turned the radio on. thought about him. i was having a hard time sleeping, and after what seemed ages – i slumbered.ContinueContinue reading “apropos”

story-telling time. way back 4th year college i told myself that upon graduating and after taking the board exam, i would pack my bags and transfer to Cebu. would apply as a contact center agent and be happy and free. i did, i boarded the Sunday trip to Cebu last December 8 and was inContinueContinue reading “CALLgirl”

i am so fricking bored. and as i was recuperating from my fever andlightheadedness, i thought of something productive to do: i redecorated my wall art in my roomas i was happily transferring the photos to groupsand gluing newpaper pages to the wallsi took my Call Girl signage (which Hans got me formy birthday withContinueContinue reading “boredom kills! :D”

there was one thing i was thinking before i came here in cebu. i feared i would change. i think i just did. inthe last few months, i have made mistakes all of which i knew i was making andmaybe some to those beyond my knowledge. i lost friends over the couple of months andpeopleContinueContinue reading “misery”

i am so anxious. this week is our performance review if we get tobe regularized and all that. whew. i hope i can. i had my share of absences andthe likes.i am still wondering where and what id do if idon’t get to be regularized.wonder where the road will take me.i am meeting my metrics.ContinueContinue reading “tabula rasa”

so i decided to go back to school. it took me an hour to writedown my options and the resources available within my reach.i cant waitactually. this is something i was planning for and had been on hold for thepast few months. this has always been part of my plans. i got 7schools/training centers toContinueContinue reading “back2skul!”

sometimes i wish i was stronger.  i wish i was able to stand up for what i believein. i wish i was better than who i am now.  i know i could have done better. or at least that is what i want to think. i wish i was courageous, to tell him what itContinueContinue reading “masochist”

this day, at 8pm. 2004. i was taken. err swept away.was at the beach.someone was holding my hand.all i could hear was the stillness of the night.the soft murmurs of the seashore.crickets sweetly cricketing their way.he held me like it was the first time.it really was the first time.he guided me down the cottage.he heldContinueContinue reading “06022004”

F,i miss you.  ive been saying that for the past few days now.  i do. so much. and mostly more on sundays. i wish i could have enough courage to look you inthe eye and not feel guilty anymore. things will change that’s for sure. im not sure if i can still run to you.  Hans,i miss you too.  i missContinueContinue reading “epiphoria”